So the past week or so I have been really raging out around the house. Well maybe rage is the wrong word. There are a lot of things going on that are driving me crazy at the moment. I'm sure they will pass.. but to the time being right now I find myself kind of an asshole to be around.
- My job is driving me crazy. Not so much where I work, as much as the people I work for. Honestly, my boss a fucking idiot and I think she knows I could do her job 1,000,000 times better than her. I didn't come into this thinking "I'm going to screw her over and take her job." And it's still not my mentality. I just want to work somewhere that I don't hate going to, or get anxious EVERY FUCKING DAY I have to go in. I always wonder, "what are we going to argue about, what will she have to say about this or that." And sometimes I go in and she treats me like an equal and we get along great. It's such a mind fuck though. Plus no matter what goes on they fuck my schedule up EVERY week. I have kids and can't work certain hours. She knows this, but still tries to push me into things. It really sucks because I have become very jaded at work. I hate it. The first couple months were great and I loved going into work.
- My kids are having some hard times right now. What I mean is my son is potty training, which is stressful. I don't want him to wet himself and be embarrassed and at the same time I don't want him to wiz on my floors. LOL. So it's just taking time and trying to make it fun. My daughter on the other hand is trying my patience left and right. I know she is just testing me, and I should ignore it. But with work troubles putting me in a weird place I find myself having a short fuse and it's making things difficult at home. There are times I feel it hard to breathe and a tightness in my chest when I'm trying to hold it all in and not lash out a my poor girl who is just trying to figure things out and try her boundaries. We all did it/do it growing up. But I know those signs are my body telling me that I had better start calming down before it's too late and I have a heart attack or something crazy.
Like I said all this will pass. I'm sure work will figure itself out or I will move on to something that suites me better. The kids, they are just being kids and soon enough things will chill. I'm going to try to take all the pent up energy and put it into writing music and working out. Put it to use instead of harm. Thanks for listing all 10 of the people that follow me. Love you guys and it's nice to know people out there want to hear what I have to say.
I have a couple new albums I'm going to listen to and get some reviews on. If there is anything you want to know or you want reviewed or opinions on just let me know. I want to interact as much as possible. Thanks
~Dog
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